Spencer Matthews reveals Vogue Williams “would’ve left” him if he hadn’t given up alcohol

"I was beginning to feel like a real loser."

Previously, Matthews was candid about his battle with alcohol, revealing he realised he had an issue in 2018.

The former Made In Chelsea star then went sober for four years, and now only drinks on occasions.

Speaking on the On the Mend with Matt Willis podcast, Spencer said: “I was very aware that if I carried on with my drinking and bad habits, that she would get bored, and she would leave me. And I knew that, and she never made that a thing.

“She never sat me down and gave me some kind of ultimatum or anything like that. But I could feel it. I could feel that she was a bit disappointed in me.

“And yes, I think the light shone on my boozing when she fell pregnant with our firstborn, Theodore.

“He made a big difference, I think, to our relationship, obviously, because I think what felt like joint fun became solo fun quite quickly because, obviously, she stopped drinking completely,” he said.

“And I just didn’t, I carried on, and it created this kind of divide in the relationship, but also made me realise, you know, maybe my drinking habits are not normal.”

Vogue has also reiterated that sentiment, speaking on the How To Fail With Elizabeth Day podcast.

She confessed that she would have broken off her relationship with Spencer if he had carried on drinking the way he was.

The mother-of-three confessed: “I think the way he was drinking, yeah, definitely. Because with my dad and stuff like that, although he was a heavy drinker, he wasn’t a drinker.

“He wouldn’t wake up in the morning and drink, but I’d know where he was at five o’clock at night, he’d always be in the pub every single day without fail.”

She also discussed how “Spencer achieved so much more” once he quit the booze.

She confessed: “He was watching me working, and I was kind of getting really cool jobs and doing better things, and he was just kind of not being very productive.

“Then he decided himself to give up drinking, and as soon as he did that, he just achieved so much more, and his career has completely changed since he did that.

“His life has completely changed, and he’s gotten himself to a point now where he can have the odd drink sometimes, and I think it’s quite helpful that I don’t want to drink all the time, we never have a drink in the house.”

“That’s not because we’re scared we will drink it, we just never want it.

“So he did that for himself, and I think that was quite an amazing thing to do.”

Speaking on The Daily Mail’s Everything I Know About Me podcast, Spencer previously also admitted: “There was a certainty that I would lose Vogue if I carried on drinking the way I was drinking."

Spencer, speaking about Vogue, continued: “She won’t mind me saying she’s a bit of a binge drinker. She actually hates alcohol, she can’t stand being hungover.

“She doesn’t like the taste of booze, but she’ll drink to get drunk. Back then, she would drink to get drunk every few days. Now, it’s once a month type of thing.”

“On the days off, I would drink, and she wouldn’t. And then she would get back on the horse. And then when she stopped, I carried on, and it was every day, and she would draw attention to it,” he confessed.

When the couple welcomed their first child, Theodore, Spencer recalled: “My drinking was emphasised by the fact that she wasn’t drinking.

“There was a general level of disappointment in her about me. Which felt s**t, right, because I’ve always wanted people who are close to me to be proud of me.

“I was beginning to feel like a real loser. She would do these great things and travel while she was pregnant, and land these TV jobs and present these documentaries. And I’d be at home.”

Spencer then reflected on the turning point, recalling the night in 2017 when he told Vogue he was ready to quit.

At the time, Spencer drank nearly a full bottle of whiskey before joining Vogue in bed, where he confessed he was going to quit.

He confessed: “She didn’t really believe me, and neither did anybody else. I didn’t drink for three and a half years, just stopped.”

In 2019, Spencer went on to launch his own low-alcohol brand, The Clean Liquor Company, which has since become a major success.