Former Pussycat Dolls star Nicole Scherzinger has spoken out about her eight-year battle with bulimia.
The singer revealed in an interview, to be published in the August issue of
Cosmopolitan, that she still tears up just thinking about it.
“I knew it wasn’t normal or healthy. I was hurting myself through this cycle of disordered eating. It was my drug, my addiction. It’s an endless vicious cycle,” she explained.
“It still is hard, and thinking about it I try not to well-up.... It is such a horrible paralysing disease and it was such a dark time for me”.
Nicole described the moment when she realised she needed help: “I had started losing my voice, I couldn’t sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out.
“I thought, ‘I’m going to lose everything I love if I don’t love myself.’ One day when you feel you’ve reached the end, you just say, ‘I’m not doing this anymore’”.
She added: “It’s sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I’m never letting that happen again”.
Nicole was struggling with bulimia when she was in the Pussycat Dolls. 
